God allowed her to be healed but not in the way we were thinking.
On Thursday, April 30, 1998, Beka awoke at 6:30 am, her heart arrested
and she fell backwards. Her roommate, Angie, heard her gasp and
immediately got up and checked on her . Angie rushed to get the
security guard who performed CPR while someone called 911. Emergency
rescue came and took over. The problem is that when there are no
electrolytes to keep the heart beating, manual pumping of the heart
does not send enough blood to the brain to keep it alive. They rushed
her to Northwestern Memorial Hospital in Chicago where they worked on
her for 45 minutes, restarting her heart 3 times before it stabilized.
We received the call at 6:30 Arizona time that she was in intensive
care and then later my husband got the call that there was severe
brain damage. The Lord allowed Beka to stay alive until we and her
siblings flew to Chicago to be by her side. We had more tests done on
her brain the next day, but it confirmed she had only lower brain stem
activity. Our family made the incredibly difficult decision to take
her off life support on May 1 and that night we began to say good-bye
to our precious Beka. We kept the vigil all night until Beka went home
to be with her Jesus, at 5:30 a.m. on May 2, 1998.
Since her death, I have claimed the scripture verse of Matthew7:7-8
from the Bible: "Ask, and it shall be given unto you; seek, and you
will find; knock and it will be opened to. For everyone who asks
receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be
opened". I asked the Lord for answers to Bekaís eating disorder.
She was no longer here, but she had left journals from the last couple
years of her life of which I am so humbly grateful. This last 6 years
has been a journey of healing. Wes and I have committed to finding
answers which has resulted in changes in our lives which would never
would have happened if Beka had not died. Part of that answer is
prevention. Will you listen to Beka?
If you are a person who has engaged in any of the behaviors listed
on our "Signs and Symptoms" page, please tell someone and get help!
Beka didnít die because she was thin. Beka died from complications
from an eating disorder that weakens and destroys your body.
Many times the fears of growing up and life changes can throw
people into finding ways to control life. Eating disorders can falsely
give a sense that a person is in control or it relieves the anxiety a
person may have about certain life situations. Some of those who
struggle with eating disorders develop a fear of certain foods or all
foods because they are afraid of gaining weight.
Self esteem and significance is wrapped into all of this. The
tragedy is that eating disorders can entrap an individual and no one
knows when that will occur. Getting well is a process and takes time.
There are no quick fixes. That is why we believe prevention is so
vital. With knowledge, a young person can make wise decisions and
avoid going down that path. Similarly, well informed parents can be
alerted to the signs, symptoms and needs of their children.
Thank you for you time in reading this. I pray it helps.
Wes & Diane Stewart
“This morning I read the scripture passage from Psalm 139,
which, yes, I’ve read many times before but this prayer and
acknowledgment of God still awes me. Here is just part of it –
but still, go read the entire passage: 'Oh Lord, you have searched
me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up. . .'”